When writing about autumn, one of the adjectives that gets tossed around is “introspective”, as in ‘Autumn is an introspective time’. Hell, I’ve used it myself. It’s not that it isn’t true; it’s that I’ve finally figured out the connection I have to winter. Introspection is the keyword.
Introspection – n. The examination of one’s own thoughts, impressions, and feelings, especially for long periods.
During the autumn and winter, we have months and months in which to turn inward and examine our beliefs and feelings. Some people, however, spend most of their time this way. That’s not necessarily a bad thing. I don’t believe it makes that person selfish or narcissistic or self-absorbed in any way; rather I find very sensitive people tend more toward introspection because it’s just…easier somehow. At least it is for me.
I’m also a very introverted person. I wasn’t always that way, but things happen and personality traits can changed. Nature vs. nurture. I’m shy. I communicate better through writing than speaking, especially when it comes to dealing with deep feelings. Some things only come out through writing, you know?
At work, in the classroom, I’m all open and energetic. I sing, I dance, I perform. ( I rarely sing or dance, but has been known to happen. ) Outside of the classroom, I am quiet. I moved to the other side of campus to be on my own, away from the other offices. There are three of us in that part of the building, and we don’t bother each other. It’s so nice.
Whoa. I’m going off on a tangent. To sum up, I like autumn because, well, I *am* autumn in a lot of ways. I like being alone with my thoughts. I like to take time to examine what I’m feeling and how I perceive things. I’m quiet and I like being alone sometimes.
Autumn is the perfect time for that. The weather often keeps us inside. Autumn is the time of death so that rebirth may occur. It’s a spooky time of year for some. We’re reminded of our own mortality. The shorter days give us more time to think about death… Maybe that’s just me. Maybe it’s because of the SAD and clinical depression. Who knows. I’m interested in hearing your thoughts on autumn and why you like it/identify with it.